Texting and Scones

Venting- Self confidence

I can go a while without my lack of self confidence really affecting me but then it’ll hit me and I’ll feel awful about myself for what can be a good few days. I find it extremely difficult to find any desirable qualities about myself, I do realise that this is an incredibly irrational way of thinking but that doesn’t make it any easier. I don’t hate myself, I know I’m not a bad person, and I’m not suffering from depression but I am completely lacking in confidence. I struggle to find myself attractive in any capacity and sometimes when engaging in conversation all I can think about is how I might be annoying the other person or how might they see me. I’ll probably delete this in a few minutes because it reads like self indulgent wank but I needed to vent